Struggle and torture, torture and struggle. Well, be it then. since it is my fate, and the quicker it is over, the better. They say I am impulsive, but look at the circumstances!!! I am sorry I have been the cause of pain to you, to you above all, who love me so much, who have been so, so kind. But it is done — was a fact. I am now going to cut the knot or die in the attempt.
- Swami Vivekananda
12th Dec., 1899. The Complete Works of Swami Vivekananda/Volume 6/Epistles - Second Series/CL Mrs. Bull